It feels like what im doing is all invisible in the eyes of your parents. They seem to take it for granted that i rush down right after i finish my last deal at work, run to the mrt station, gobble up dinner and wishing they could all eat faster so tt i can see you quickly. They seem to take it like it's expected of me.
It's so late alr yet others go and see you, how nice of them. But for me, it's expected of me to stay till late. Of course, i am not categorised under "you xin le". It just hurts to feel unappreciated. Maybe im overthinking it. But it hurts not to be appreciated.
How can i be accused of not putting you as priority when all i could ever think of is you at work. Even you feel the same way as ur parents. Even you pointed out tt ur friends placed you as priority. So what was i doing all evening? All day? Why was i being worried for someone who doesnt even think i care. Why was i so foolish to care abt someone who thinks that i dont place him as priority. This is hurting me much more than it should. But if i tell him this, i'll be accused of victimising myself again. And another fight would ensue. I love him alot, but i dont wanna be unappreciated all the same.
Journey through this phase of my life @ |{11:42 PM|
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Thursday, August 28, 2014
Odd. This is the first time we are heading to different companies and doing different things ever since we got together. I hope Greg's job goes well! And I'm praying hard that I will get a job v soon. I'm honestly quite tired of staying at home and not generating some economic benefits! Please let my interview tmr be smooth! And please let my interviewer select me for the role! I really do need to work v soon, i'm itching to start!
Journey through this phase of my life @ |{6:37 PM|
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Hearing tt you are totally fine, makes me happy and sad at the same time. Happy that youve moved on. Sad that you really took such a short time to move on.
Journey through this phase of my life @ |{9:06 AM|
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Wednesday, March 12, 2014
Bunnyhead, i know you are angry, but everytime when you're angry, you push ppl away and that's qte painful you know? Especially if you are the one being pushed away Xp you have no idea how much it hurts to be pushed away by someone whom you love, intentionally. That feeling is no joke Xp
Hurry hurry calm yourself down and stop pushing me away.. bleahhh :P
Journey through this phase of my life @ |{10:43 PM|
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Omg, first time im on someone's auto rejection list. And it's by my boyfriend somemore. Lol, does this mean tt he doesnt wanna be bothered by me? Am i supposed to take the hint and not call him? Lol, i am still reeling in shock now. Lol. Lol. Lol. I dont know what to say
